First, 100 followers! YEAH! Thanks so much for following my crazy babbles.
Second, 327.2 lbs this morning. HOLY HELL! I am melting. WOOHOO!
Third, and the reason I am melting is that I am on a serious head trip.
I was talking to my BFF last night and telling her how I was still tight, but that it was loosening up because I'd been able to eat a lot today (which was yesterday, but it was today in the convo - follow me?). I ticked off all this food I'd eaten:
B: 1/2 of a fruit and yogurt parfait from McD's and about 1/4 of a small iced coffee
L: 1 chicken nugget and 1 tiny bite of cheeseburger from Wendy's (we had company and fast food was just easier, as she is the pickiest person alive) and about 3 bites of Frosty
S: 3/4 oz cheese
D: 1.5 raviolis with sauce
As I said it, she was like, "Ummmm, BFF, you are crazy." And I realized she was right. That's hardly any food. That's about one meal's worth of food, not three meals' worth of food. Certainly not a day's worth of food.
My mindset is all screwy. And let's not even talk about the amount of food I keep ordering and wasting, because I am hungry and think I can eat it, but I can't.
Part of me started freaking out, because I am hungry a lot. Not eat-my-arm-off-hungry, but thinking-about-food-hungry. I was thinking it was because I was *still* too loose.
Then I had an epiphany. It's not because I am too loose. It's because I am too tight. Right? Follow me for a minute.
The amount of food I ate yesterday wouldn't help anyone feel full all day. Even if they were at perfect restriction, because it was such a small amount.
But if my band loosens just a bit, and I can eat in the ballpark of a cup of food per meal (not all day!), I am thinking I should feel restriction.
Is anyone following me here? What do you think? Or maybe I really am just crazy!