I was so happy and doing so well yesterday. Then I picked up the kids, and BAM! My mood shot straight to you-know-where on a rocketsled.
It wasn't really the kids, although they were kinda testing my patience last night. It was that I tried to eat some leftover shrimp, even though I knew that was an incredibly dumb idea. I was being stubborn, and I have no idea why.
I PB'ed, although nothing really came up. And it was a weird PB. I didn't have the painful stuck part beforehand. I just suddenly had this sensation that it was going to be reappearing any second. I made it to the sink in time to hoork like a cat (which I talked about on someone's blog last night) while DD said, "Bless you, Mommy!" Does hoorking sound like sneezing? Apparently.
That left me hungry and with a headache (I PB'ed so hard, I was seeing stars). And two trying-my-patience kids. And a house that needed tidied up so the cleaning lady could clean today. And a gift that needed wrapped for a good friend who just had her second child. And friends who wanted to talk and a shoulder to cry on.
Playing single mom all week is getting really old. This is week nine, in case you were counting with me. So, it's been 42 nights (5 nights per week) of taking care of the kids on my own. I'm ready for this all to be over. Just a few more months, I can do anything for a few months, right?
Anyhow, this morning, I was so hoping for a better start to the day. I actually even did my hair and makeup. Then DD proceeded to throw FOUR temper tantrums before we even got to daycare. DS fell as soon as we got there and cut his lip pretty good. I was seriously sweating off my makeup and my hair was matted to me, after trying to wrangle two crying kids into daycare by myself.
Where's the Calgon when you need it? Or maybe a shot of vodka?
The good news is when I stepped on the scale this morning, it said 334.2. That means that tomorrow should be a nice loss of a couple of pounds for my official weekly weigh-in. YEAH for good news.
I'm determined to have a better night with the kids. I may make a frozen pizza and go for a walk. It's beautiful here, and I am going to take advantage of the nice weather to have a nice evening! If all else fails, I will find that vodka.
Oh you sweet poor little thing. Okay I'm a new follower so tell me why you're a single mommy only temporarily? Girl - you must have balls of steel to get through all that without a bag of Oreos. I'm exhausted reading it - sending you good vibes! Hang in there. Or sell the kids. I hear they're in high demand right now. J/K...sort of.
ReplyDeleteDrazil, DH got a job that will eventually be transferring us to Orlando. But in the mean time, he works 3+ hours away and is gone Sunday afternoon through Thursday evening.
ReplyDeleteWhat's your offer on the kids? They're cute albeit a bit spoiled. ;)
I agree with Drazil!! I feel for you so much in terms of being alone with 2 kids. I get overwhelmed with my 1 kid. No joke.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes wonder if I'm cut out to even be a mom... but I guess it just takes all kinds. I do love my little critter to bits and it is obvious that you love yours.
Hang in there... this is a temporary thing until you are in Sunny Orlando.
It's what I say to myself (more or less) about my commute situation-- it is temporary and I am doing what I can to change it!!
xo V
Wow! How exhausting! I give you props doll you are a tough one! Congrats on your lbs lost so far! You should be super proud of yourself! And I have not had a PB yet or gotten stuck and I am terrified cuz it sounds awful....hopefully it never happens but I get my first fill on Friday so we shall see.
ReplyDeleteI thought I was the only one who cleaned for the cleaning lady. Otherwise they dust around all the piles of junk. Hope tomorrow is a better day.
ReplyDeleteI'm with Dinnerland. I have one and it is a miracle when we arrive anywhere intact and on time! Congrats on the loss!
ReplyDeleteHang in there. If you can get through this couple of months and still lose weight, you can lose weight during anything. Just remember, sometimes it's okay to say no. Or make things a little easier on yourself. Put the gift in a gift bag and call it wrapped.
ReplyDeleteAck! I hear you on the single mum thing. Did it a fair bit too when MOTH was working up north on the gas plant. Weeks and weeks at a time.. not fun! (Don't know how I would have done 49+ days straight though. You're a champ.. no too ways about it.)
ReplyDeleteI am right there with ya! my husband is in Denver, CO for now and I am in NC until the school year is over...with three small boys. There is not enough calgon in the world I have discovered to handle what we are tackling. take each day one at a time. there will be good days and bad...I find the hardest food time I have is when I am trying to rush or eat on the run because of the kids...or having a rough evening with them. hang in there!
ReplyDeleteHoork like a cat. Seriously funny. It's my new favorite saying.
ReplyDeleteYou will get through the single mom thing and then you will be in Sunny Orlando. I'm uber jealous of you, I want to live near Disney World! LOL.
I thought that I was the only one that cleaned before the cleaning lady (my SIL) was here so it didn't look so bad!!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that you are having so many problems right now!! Take a long hot bath when the kids are asleep!!
Isn't it funny that no matter how bad our PB's are, the world still evolves and expects us to continue as if we had no problems?
lol. i love being a solo-mom. there is so much freedom for me. i know, it is a lot different when you are used to having someone around and all...
ReplyDeletehang in there. stick to a routine and schedule.
SM, I like the solo mom part when I only have one munchkin with me. But two is one too many. With them so young, I can't even do the park alone - they're each going in different directions and are too young to handly monkey bars and such alone. Sigh. Either that, or I'm a giant wimp. Which is entirely possible!
ReplyDeleteIronically, though, I think about you a lot when I am solo'ing it and give you major kudos for keeping it all together as well as you do!