Sunday, March 14

Being happy with progress, not perfection

Since my last post about PB'ing, I've been barely able to eat anything without pain or just plain feeling full. That's the good news. The scale has also rewarded me with another 3 lb drop, so I'm exactly 6 lbs from a 40-lb-loss and hope to do that in the next 11 days, so I can say I lost 40 lbs in 4 months.

The bad news is my full feeling is not a satisfying stomach type full. It's more of a sits-in-my-throat full. It's so strange. I want to eat, eat, eat, but I just feel like I am filled to the max and one more bite won't even go down.

But I still feel hungry when this happens.

Soooooo, instead of focusing on the hunger (which is what I've been doing), I'm trying to focus on the fact that the band is forcing me to eat less. It'd be nice if it came with a feeling of satisfaction, since it's more like aversion therapy right now. But I'll take what I can get. This is still A HUGE STEP in the right direction.

And that's what I am focusing on - progress not perfection.

I can deal with the hunger. I really can.

We went out to breakfast with our friends this morning, and I got the same thing I always got - the country scrambler. It's skillet potatoes scrambled with tiny bits of ham, bacon, sausage, and onions, topped with poached eggs (my choice), cheese, and country gravy. I used to be able to eat the whole thing. This morning I literally ate about 1/6 of the dish. I have enough left over for 3 or 4 more breakfasts (I left most of the eggs behind, because I do not like reheated eggs). While I still hungry, everyone else was done eating, so I stopped too.

Progress. Not perfection. I'm working on it...


  1. Congrats on the restriction. I totally know the hungry but can't eat more feeling you're talking about.

    Good luck getting to 40x4!

  2. I might be wrong about this, but it really sounds to me like you're too tight.

  3. I'm feeling the same way after my fill last Tuesday but I'm giving it a few more days. I can eat a cup of food in the evening but not as much at breakfast and lunch and feel hungry most of the day. I started drinking this protein fruit drink instead of water to get some calories in so hope the hunger feeling goes away. I think our bodies will get used to the lower amount of food and be happy with the fewer calories. Good luck. I hope the tightness dissipates too--otherwise we may need an unfill.

  4. Sounds like you may be overfilled to me as well.
    This happened to me back in November. I got stuck real bad after a fill and then everything I tried hurt due to the swelling. I put myself on liquids until I got in for a small unfill. My NP then put me on an acid reducer for a couple weeks just to make sure nothing irritated the band further.
    After it healed and no more pain I was able to get the fill back and I've learned to be very careful.
    Maybe try shakes and soups for a few days????
    But everyone is different so it makes it so hard :)

  5. Seriously? I never even considered I was TOO full. I am laughing at myself right now. Maybe I am too full. I really have NO idea. If I am, though, I am going to try to wait it out...$150 to unfill is NOT something I want to do!

  6. Amy - the whole over/under restriction is hard. I struggle with it even though I have definitely been overfilled. I can tell you when I was really overfilled everything hurt even liquids. I think with that episode if I had stuck to mushies and not pushed it I would have been OK. So if you're going to wait it out take it easy. Buy some good soup. :)