Since my last post about PB'ing, I've been barely able to eat anything without pain or just plain feeling full. That's the good news. The scale has also rewarded me with another 3 lb drop, so I'm exactly 6 lbs from a 40-lb-loss and hope to do that in the next 11 days, so I can say I lost 40 lbs in 4 months.
The bad news is my full feeling is not a satisfying stomach type full. It's more of a sits-in-my-throat full. It's so strange. I want to eat, eat, eat, but I just feel like I am filled to the max and one more bite won't even go down.
But I still feel hungry when this happens.
Soooooo, instead of focusing on the hunger (which is what I've been doing), I'm trying to focus on the fact that the band is forcing me to eat less. It'd be nice if it came with a feeling of satisfaction, since it's more like aversion therapy right now. But I'll take what I can get. This is still A HUGE STEP in the right direction.
And that's what I am focusing on - progress not perfection.
I can deal with the hunger. I really can.
We went out to breakfast with our friends this morning, and I got the same thing I always got - the country scrambler. It's skillet potatoes scrambled with tiny bits of ham, bacon, sausage, and onions, topped with poached eggs (my choice), cheese, and country gravy. I used to be able to eat the whole thing. This morning I literally ate about 1/6 of the dish. I have enough left over for 3 or 4 more breakfasts (I left most of the eggs behind, because I do not like reheated eggs). While I still hungry, everyone else was done eating, so I stopped too.
Progress. Not perfection. I'm working on it...