Tuesday, May 4

This and that

I swear, I am losing my mind. I am having a hard time focusing on things, remembering stuff, and keeping my life straight. I am normally very level-headed, have a great memory, and feel very 'together'. But being overwhelmed at both work and home is pushing me right to the edge of insanity! Ahhhhhhh.....Anyhow, some randomness for your Tuesday:

Even eating ice cream last night, the scale was down another .2 lbs this morning. Have I mentioned lately how much I love my band? She rocks!

I have a fill tomorrow - I'm thinking .25-.5cc should really, finally, be the fill that brings me to my sweet spot. And I love a good sweet spot! ;)

No one has asked for my sisterhood clothes! WAAAHHHHH! I hate being the fattest sister. LOL Seriously, I will hang onto them for a week or so, just in case someone comes along and wants them. But if not, I will sort out the work wear for our local Dress for Success type organization and the rest will go to Good Will. ETA: You guys rock! I so appreciate all the support about being the fattest sister. But no worries - I was saying it in a very tongue-in-cheek, sarcastic way. I wish my very dry sense of humor translated to the written word, but alas, it does not. I am by no means upset about being one of the largest bandsters. I wear it like a badge of honor, and anyhow, who else will be able to say they lost 200 lbs!?!?!? And when that happens, you can all be soooo jealous of MWAH! Smooches!

The most I ever lost on a diet was 59.8 lbs on Weight Watchers' Core plan July 2006 - March 2007. I am quickly approaching that amount and am excited to pass it right by! If my fill is tight, I anticipate doing that next week!

DH still doesn't know when he'll be coming home. Not this weekend, but maybe next. In case you are counting, that would be 3 weeks! I think it's the uncertainty more so than the length of time that is making me nutso.

DH's aunt, who is the controller for the company, is heading to Orlando tomorrow, and the owner told her not to leave FL without a signed contract for a warehouse. So, if all goes well, we should have a better idea of when we are moving by the weekend. However, I'm not getting my hopes up, as I've thought this a few times and it's not panned out yet.

While this journey with the band has not been super easy, it's also not been super hard. If that makes any sense. OTOH, I've had to work for every ounce of these 56 lbs without being in the green zone. OTOH, I haven't worked nearly as hard for every ounce of these 56 lbs as I have when dieting in the past. Something is working right, even if it's not working as right as I would like it to!

Off to drink my latte and attempt to get some work done. Toodles!


  1. Hey girl - what size are your "fat" clothes? I may be interested :). I think I'm the fattest sister, even thought I'm not in the sisterhood :).

  2. Hey! Here's my post about them: http://babblesofabandster.blogspot.com/2010/05/my-turn-to-repay-sisterhood.html

    They are mostly 28W/3X with a few other odds and ends thrown in. Let me know if they work for you!

    And of course, you are in the sisterhood!!!!

  3. I totally get what you mean about hard but not hard. You are not the fattest sister! You shouldn't feel that way. Someone whether is a sister or not will appreciate your donation. You're doing a nice thing!!!

  4. Don't think about the number or your size. For one, you're tall (and everyone is jealous). Sometimes I think about that losing 105 pounds got me to 250# and I read other blogs that say "how did I ever let myself get to 250?" -- I had to lose 100 pounds to get to where some people started! But I try not to let it get to me, and just focus on my own pilgrimage to a healthy bod. You are doing so great!

  5. I'm not suprised that you're feeling overwhelmed, I couldn't cope for 3 weeks with young children without my dh being around at weekends. You're doing fantastically!

  6. It's definitely about perspective. I read in somebody's blog that they were already in onederland BEFORE they got banded. Do you know how jealous that made me? But to them, their journey was just beginning and they probably feel as big as I feel at 270. I would have asked about your clothes, but I'm pretty close to getting banded and hope my size will be dropping fairly quickly. Hope your fill goes well.

  7. -Read your post on the BOOBs blog and wanted to let you know that Laura and I have room for a third if you are interested. You can email me through my profile.

  8. Wanted to say I'm glad I saw it because now I have a new blog to follow! Congrats on your weight loss so far! I'm still waiting for my first fill and it seems like forever away!

    And if you're in Fl before the Boobs trip, perhaps we can carpool!