Saturday, February 13

Change of Heart

I have changed my mind about having this band.

HA! Now that I have your attention...the change of heart is that I am going to work with it!!!

I wanted to give my most heartfelt thanks for the supportive comments yesterday. Not one person called me a whiney brat, which would have been more than fair.

I am very disappointed I can't get a fill sooner. I had contemplated seeing if I could find a local surgeon to take me on. But then I realized I should probably stay with one surgeon until we move. For some reason, I just feel like this gives me a better chance of finding a surgeon who'll take me on in FL. Who knows if this is true, but it makes sense to me.

I'm OK now with the four weeks. I wish it were sooner, but the truth is maybe I was expecting more from the band than I should be. I DO have to chew well, I DO have to take small bites, certain foods just *sound* like they'll get stuck on me. I know this means I am very close, and instead of waiting for perfect restriction, I had a sudden realization that I can at least work with the band for the next few weeks. Duh. I know, it's so obvious. But I guess I just had to work through it and accept it.

I will admit to having some moments last night of wanting to eat everything I shouldn't. But I didn't. I did have a few chips, but they were threatening to stick on me, so I gave those up. I even got DD a cheeseburger from Burger King and nothing even tempted me on the menu. I guess I should give the band a little more credit.

So, I guess it's timely since tomorrow is Valentine's Day, but it's time for me to have a change of heart and really get with it. Even without perfect restriction, the band IS helping me, and for that I am grateful. And now it's my turn, indeed my opportunity, to allow it to help me even a little more.


  1. Oh I am so glad you are ok today. I am sure you must be close and with a little bit of you and a little bit of the band I am sure you will see some losses in these next few weeks

  2. Glad to hear you're feeling better!

  3. You sound more 'up' which is fantastic. No one could ever call you a whiny brat - because there's not one of us that hasn't experienced a level of frustration ourselves at one time or another! The very fact you have to slow down, chew slow, eat small bites is showing you, you do have SOME restriction.. and the rest will follow. It's just making you get into good habits before you have a lot of restriction.
    Have a good weekend, Amy.
    Cara x