Change of Heart

I have changed my mind about having this band.

HA! Now that I have your attention...the change of heart is that I am going to work with it!!!

I wanted to give my most heartfelt thanks for the supportive comments yesterday. Not one person called me a whiney brat, which would have been more than fair.

I am very disappointed I can't get a fill sooner. I had contemplated seeing if I could find a local surgeon to take me on. But then I realized I should probably stay with one surgeon until we move. For some reason, I just feel like this gives me a better chance of finding a surgeon who'll take me on in FL. Who knows if this is true, but it makes sense to me.

I'm OK now with the four weeks. I wish it were sooner, but the truth is maybe I was expecting more from the band than I should be. I DO have to chew well, I DO have to take small bites, certain foods just *sound* like they'll get stuck on me. I know this means I am very close, and instead of waiting for perfect restriction, I had a sudden realization that I can at least work with the band for the next few weeks. Duh. I know, it's so obvious. But I guess I just had to work through it and accept it.

I will admit to having some moments last night of wanting to eat everything I shouldn't. But I didn't. I did have a few chips, but they were threatening to stick on me, so I gave those up. I even got DD a cheeseburger from Burger King and nothing even tempted me on the menu. I guess I should give the band a little more credit.

So, I guess it's timely since tomorrow is Valentine's Day, but it's time for me to have a change of heart and really get with it. Even without perfect restriction, the band IS helping me, and for that I am grateful. And now it's my turn, indeed my opportunity, to allow it to help me even a little more.