I think it's time to admit it's time for an unfill.
I really, really don't want to.
But my last fill was .25 cc on May 5, bringing me to 11.25 cc in a 14 cc band. Since then, over 4.5 months, I've lost 60 lbs, and my band is still mostly uber-tight. In fact, it seems to be getting tighter. I keep thinking if I lose enough weight, it'll loosen up. But if 60 lbs didn't do it, I don't think anything will!
I did liquids for more than a week after that fill. I've been on liquids for a week at a time several times since then. I can't eat anything before 12-1 pm. Some days I can barely even drink in the mornings. And now I'm getting tight again in the evening. I just PB'ed on water. I PB'ed on iced tea last week. I could barely get down some homemade cheddar broccoli soup tonight.
I will call tomorrow. I don't even have a surgeon down here yet (my own procrastinating fault), but I have a few options, including the guy Jacquie and Stephanie see. I'm hoping whoever takes me on will do just a little .25 cc unfill or so. And quickly. I am getting tired of living like this.
I hit the wall tonight - I realized I am often tired, because my diet is so lacking. If I really want to run, and I really do want to run, I have to be able to eat more than I can right now.
I know it's not the end of the world. I just am so scared of getting into that fill-unfill cycle, and being self-pay, that's an expensive cycle to get into! But I can't live like this anymore. So, I am admitting it to you guys, and putting it in writing, so I don't back out tomorrow!
Good luck! It's such a hard decision because it's a gamble with an unfill. Hopefully they'll just take a smidge out to give you relief.
ReplyDeleteOh sweetie.. you have to be able to live your life too.. so I think you know inside what you need to do.. and you are right, it might just be a matter of tweaking that can make all the difference in the world.. fingers crossed you can get relief soon..
ReplyDeleteI just hope it isn't too late.. being too tight can have consequences. This sounds like an awful way to live, I am glad you are getting an unfill..
ReplyDeleteYep, sounds like it's time. Good for you for knowing that and for taking action.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything works out. How about sending some of that restriction over my way :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon, I am sorta tight myself... TOM and all. *Maria*-blogger from "This one time at BAND Camp..."
ReplyDeleteI think you're opting for the right thing-- when you need an unfill, you know it and you need to go. I've been toying with this for a while, but plan to wait it out until I see the doc in October.
ReplyDeleteBut hellz yeah: get a small unfill and it will probably make all the difference... xo DL
I am working with the same surgeon, and he is so nice. I haven't had my procedure yet, but am looking forward to working with him more. I have only heard good things about him, from people at my church, past patients, and even some random people I have run into who know him. I hope you find comfort and it all works out for you!
ReplyDeleteWow, 11.5 cc in a 14...I have a 14 cc band and haven't gotten my first fill yet. The 14cc band seems so uncommon.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get some relief! There is no need to be unable to get the nutrition that you need!
Oh my gosh! I can't imagine not even being able to drink water/tea. I get irritated sometimes if I can't even have bread or whatever else awful bad food I am trying to pork away on. But to be that tight must be pure torture. I can't believe you have had to deal with it for so long. Good luck on your unfill. And I agree, the tiniest tweak could make the world of difference.
ReplyDeletei'm sure this is the right decision.
ReplyDeleteHere's hoping they'll see you quickly and that it goes smoothly.
Oh Amylicious! Poor puddin! Feel better soon!! xo
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