Sandy Lee had a great post about how pics really make a blog. And I agree.
So, I was thinking maybe I could start "Thousand Word Thursday" where I randomly come up with a subject of which you can post a pic (favorite outfit, your bedspread, what you're having for breakfast, really and truly totally random) every Thursday. It'd kinda be like BYOC, except with pics instead.
And of course, we'll do pics of ourselves as well!
Thoughts? Will anyone else play besides me?
Tuesday, August 31
That's a good band.
I don't know what kind of magic each of you has up her (his) sleeve, but man, all I have to do is complain to you guys and BOOM! like magic, it's better.
My band is MUCH better today. I'm sticking to liquids just to ensure it's all the way better tomorrow. And guess who made a quick appearance? Aunt Flo. Hmmm....
Oh, and the scale is down 1 lb bringing me to a cool, even 110 lbs lost!
The kids and I ran a few errands today, and while we were out, I thought I'd try on some shoes in anticipation of the dress I'll be wearing to the wedding. It's amazing how much better strappy heels feel at 264 lbs vs. 374 lbs!
One of the fun things about this size is I can wear an XXL in misses or a 1x in women's right now (on top), so I have twice as much to look at when shopping. HA! Strangely, I would have thought I'd run to the misses section, just because I could, but in reality, I gravitate towards the women's section. Maybe because it's what I am used to? Maybe because I feel like an impostor in the misses section? Likewise, I don't EVER look at pants in stores other than LB, because I've been bigger than a 24W for so long. I can now wear 22W on bottom in most stores (24 from Target - jerks!), but I find myself not even looking. I guess I need to recondition myself. I could do it like one of Pavlov's dogs - put some chocolate in the misses section and near the pants in order to entice the fat girl to come over? (In case my writing isn't as funny as it sounds in my head, that was a joke!)
Anyhoooooo, off to accomplish something while the littlest one sleeps and the bigger one 'relaxes' in my room. My 30 min of alone time for the day!
My band is MUCH better today. I'm sticking to liquids just to ensure it's all the way better tomorrow. And guess who made a quick appearance? Aunt Flo. Hmmm....
Oh, and the scale is down 1 lb bringing me to a cool, even 110 lbs lost!
The kids and I ran a few errands today, and while we were out, I thought I'd try on some shoes in anticipation of the dress I'll be wearing to the wedding. It's amazing how much better strappy heels feel at 264 lbs vs. 374 lbs!
One of the fun things about this size is I can wear an XXL in misses or a 1x in women's right now (on top), so I have twice as much to look at when shopping. HA! Strangely, I would have thought I'd run to the misses section, just because I could, but in reality, I gravitate towards the women's section. Maybe because it's what I am used to? Maybe because I feel like an impostor in the misses section? Likewise, I don't EVER look at pants in stores other than LB, because I've been bigger than a 24W for so long. I can now wear 22W on bottom in most stores (24 from Target - jerks!), but I find myself not even looking. I guess I need to recondition myself. I could do it like one of Pavlov's dogs - put some chocolate in the misses section and near the pants in order to entice the fat girl to come over? (In case my writing isn't as funny as it sounds in my head, that was a joke!)
Anyhoooooo, off to accomplish something while the littlest one sleeps and the bigger one 'relaxes' in my room. My 30 min of alone time for the day!
Monday, August 30
I like it tight, but this is insane.
About a week ago, I woke up to a seriously out-of-nowhere tight band. No fills in the last (almost) four months, no Aunt Flo coming to visit, no cold or sinus issues, nothing out of the ordinary.
And today, 9 days later, I am still tight as a mo-fo. Ugh. I am getting tired of this.
Some days are a bit looser than others, but in general, liquids and very soft cheese is the only thing I can get to stay down. Since I HATE PB'ing, I don't push it, but you know how you can just tell? Yeah, still tight. Yesterday was a bit better, but I stuck to liquids, hoping I'd clear up any remaining swelling so that I could be back on food today.
Not so much. I'm tighter today than yesterday!
It wouldn't be so bad if the scale would go down in response to liquids, but it's holding steady. Not eating AND no weight loss? Boo hoo!
End of whine. At least for now.
And today, 9 days later, I am still tight as a mo-fo. Ugh. I am getting tired of this.
Some days are a bit looser than others, but in general, liquids and very soft cheese is the only thing I can get to stay down. Since I HATE PB'ing, I don't push it, but you know how you can just tell? Yeah, still tight. Yesterday was a bit better, but I stuck to liquids, hoping I'd clear up any remaining swelling so that I could be back on food today.
Not so much. I'm tighter today than yesterday!
It wouldn't be so bad if the scale would go down in response to liquids, but it's holding steady. Not eating AND no weight loss? Boo hoo!
End of whine. At least for now.
Friday, August 27
109 lbs lost pics!
It's everyone's favorite time - picture time! A little lazy editing here, and I turned the opposite of how I normally do, but I think you'll be able to see a bit of a difference. Or maybe a 109 lb difference!
It's so weird looking back; I swear I hardly recognize the 'before me'. That was not the person I was meant to be. I've got a ways to go yet, but I feel like I recognize myself again. I am me again. And it feels good.
(Click on any pic to make it larger.)
It's so weird looking back; I swear I hardly recognize the 'before me'. That was not the person I was meant to be. I've got a ways to go yet, but I feel like I recognize myself again. I am me again. And it feels good.
(Click on any pic to make it larger.)
I puffy heart the sisterhood!
I have to tell you, I think the sisterhood is the best thing ever. Especially since I finally got my butt in gear and sent out four boxes of sisterhood clothes today.
I have received stuff from 5 or 6 different very generous people. Those items were worn and loved, and they are now on their way to four more bandsters who I know will greatly appreciate them. In fact, of the 60+ lbs of clothes I sent out today, probably 90% were clothes that had been sent to me. I'd also already sent out several boxes months ago to a few bandsters with my original clothing, and I know several of those items have also made their way to other bandsters.
And in response to my request for clothes last week and my dress crisis, I have several packages coming to me. I can't tell you enough how much I appreciate all of this. I tell EVERYONE about the sisterhood, and they all think it is the greatest thing ever. I completely agree.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your generosity! You guys are the greatest. Here's a big slobbery kiss just for you! SMOOCH!
Wednesday, August 25
I birthed a band!
My band has gestated to maturity! 9 months after first implanting this little sucker...
...gone are:
Having the courage to make the decision to get the band is one of the things I'm most proud of myself for. Not the losing with the band, not the work I've put in, but the courage to admit I had a problem that was bigger than I could tackle on my own. That's the hardest step, at least it was for me.
Have I been a perfect bandster? No. Will I be a perfect bandster in the future? Nope. However, I do 90% of it right, and 90% is usually a passing grade anywhere you go. I don't drink with meals or for 30 min afterwards, I don't drink soda, I focus on protein (when my stupid band isn't being fickle and tightening out of nowhere), I workout, and I eat 3 meals plus 1 (occasionally 2) small snack per day. What don't I do "right"? I drink calories (lattes, coffee creamer, gatorade, watered-down juice), I eat chocolate and cheese and all my other high-cal favs, and I don't count calories.
I've been thinking a lot about my cross roads post, where I talked about buckling down to lose faster or continuing my 90% approach and losing a little more slowly. I finally realized (with the help of my mom) that when I buckle down and go balls-to-the-wall with anything, especially dieting, I burn myself out and have a swing-back that typically counteracts any progress I've made. I've done it 100s of times. In fact, I think it was this approach that helped me to 'diet' my way to nearly 400 lbs. So, with that in mind, I'm going to keep on this path I'm on, of being happy with 2 lbs/week and no obsessing, and see where it takes me. I reserve the right to change my mind in the future, but I'm enjoying this journey, and if I take the enjoyment out, I see trouble brewing. And why cause trouble when there is none?
If my 90% effort gets me 90% results, you know, I might just be okay with that. 180 lbs gone certainly wouldn't upset me!
And with that, I will talk to you all later, maybe even post some progress pics if I actually take a shower today. LOL. If I'm a bit absent these next few days, it's because my mom is in town for a quick visit. Smooches!
...gone are:
- 107 lbs
- 99.25"
- The fear of not ever being able to lose weight once and for all
- My self-consciousness over my size; I'm still fat, but I feel normal-fat instead of stand-out-fat now
- Swollen ankles and sore feet
- Self-confidence
- Faith in myself
- A better attitude towards everything in my life
- More happiness
Having the courage to make the decision to get the band is one of the things I'm most proud of myself for. Not the losing with the band, not the work I've put in, but the courage to admit I had a problem that was bigger than I could tackle on my own. That's the hardest step, at least it was for me.
Have I been a perfect bandster? No. Will I be a perfect bandster in the future? Nope. However, I do 90% of it right, and 90% is usually a passing grade anywhere you go. I don't drink with meals or for 30 min afterwards, I don't drink soda, I focus on protein (when my stupid band isn't being fickle and tightening out of nowhere), I workout, and I eat 3 meals plus 1 (occasionally 2) small snack per day. What don't I do "right"? I drink calories (lattes, coffee creamer, gatorade, watered-down juice), I eat chocolate and cheese and all my other high-cal favs, and I don't count calories.
I've been thinking a lot about my cross roads post, where I talked about buckling down to lose faster or continuing my 90% approach and losing a little more slowly. I finally realized (with the help of my mom) that when I buckle down and go balls-to-the-wall with anything, especially dieting, I burn myself out and have a swing-back that typically counteracts any progress I've made. I've done it 100s of times. In fact, I think it was this approach that helped me to 'diet' my way to nearly 400 lbs. So, with that in mind, I'm going to keep on this path I'm on, of being happy with 2 lbs/week and no obsessing, and see where it takes me. I reserve the right to change my mind in the future, but I'm enjoying this journey, and if I take the enjoyment out, I see trouble brewing. And why cause trouble when there is none?
If my 90% effort gets me 90% results, you know, I might just be okay with that. 180 lbs gone certainly wouldn't upset me!
And with that, I will talk to you all later, maybe even post some progress pics if I actually take a shower today. LOL. If I'm a bit absent these next few days, it's because my mom is in town for a quick visit. Smooches!
Tuesday, August 24
Death to JC Penney
The beautiful, perfect, most awesome dress in the universe still comes up on a search and you can add it to your cart, but then it's UNAVAILABLE. Sigh. So much for that. BUT....MLM is sending me two dresses, AND Stephanie offered to lend me a dress if I need one. So, I am set!
But now that I can't have that other dress, I really, really, really want it. Sigh.
But now that I can't have that other dress, I really, really, really want it. Sigh.
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