You know, I don't think I've been kind enough to my band.
I haven't given her the credit she deserves.
In fact, I've done a lot of complaining about her - being too tight, too loose, not doing her job, expecting more of me than I wanted her to and so on.
But if I take the emotion of losing weight out of it, and just look at the cold, hard facts, I think my band has been working overtime with very little praise from me.
She's helped me lose nearly 80 lbs in just over 6 months.
She's done it while dimming my hunger.
She's not required me to focus on her 24/7.
She's practically gotten rid of my cravings.
All the while, she's allowed me to still enjoy my favorite foods: chocolate, cheese, coffee, sushi.
Oh, how I love my band!
I've been doing some thinking lately about how I still don't feel like I am at my sweet spot and am tired of feeling hungry all the time. Then I took a step back and looked at what I ate yesterday: McD's frappe, half cup of lentil soup, cup of tomato soup, and half of a homemade cappucino (milk, no sugar). I'm still pretty tight from my PB on Saturday. Anyhow, um, yeah, that's not much food. And while I was hungry, it was "annoying and I know I could eat and I kinda wanna eat, but I am not ready to gnaw my arm off" type of hunger. It was livable.
I think I need to work on the head part of this and realize that I may have to deal with some hunger. It's NOT the same hunger as pre-band. I guess I finally just realized this. It's a livable, kind of annoying but not overpowering kind of hunger.
And I really think I am too tight. I can't remember the last time I ate 1 cup of food in one sitting. So I don't think it's fair to blame my band for my hunger. I think the reality is I am not eating enough to be full, sweet spot or not. However, I am going to have to deal with it for a few more weeks until I can find a new surgeon in FL. I am okay with it - I can still eat, just not much.
Finally, work planned my going away party at a sushi restaurant for lunch on Thursday. I am kinda stressing it - they don't know about my band. I am still tight from that dumb PB. I am thinking I can probably do some soup and a sashimi. Other ideas?
I know you were still tight, but I don't know if you had enough protien. Do you like any mushies that are high in protein that you could eat when you're tight like that? Really the day was all liquids-I would be dying.
ReplyDeleteFor the sushi restaurant I would do soup and if they have an avacado and crab salad (like mine does) and sashimi. That way it looks like you are eating alot but not really. And you will get lots of protein.
ReplyDeleteAmen. I agree with Jenny and do think you are actually a bit to tight. I had been in the same boat and was just naturally gravitating towards liquids and almost afraid to eat solid food because I was worried about getting stuck. It just seemed like I was getting stuck all.the.time. I went in for a teeny unfill yesterday so hopeful this will help. Trust me, I was panicked to go in and have to get an unfill cause I'm afraid I opened up the flood gates and once but, I'm also not going to be losing any weight drinking higher calories drinks (lattes, juice, etc.) that I tend to drink when I can't eat. so, hopefully once I get get some actual good solid protein in my body, the scale will move again.
ReplyDeleteTough it out for a couple more weeks (if you can) and get into see someone ASAP when you are settled in at the new place!
I hope you find a fill doc in FL that doesn't have such a draconian un-fill policy as your current one.
ReplyDelete80 pounds in 6 months? Shut the hell up!!
ReplyDeleteI know that you are going crazy trying to get rid of stuff for your move. I don't know if you'd want any stuff now. But I cleaned out my closet and have some good tall girl things....including a very cute brown dress, perfect for a summer wedding, or for just feeling pretty. LMK
xo
Good luck with lunch...try to enjoy!!!!! Your band is amazing!!!
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